Life - A Reality Check

When things go beyond my control, I pray. Earnestly.
And make futile attempts to explain it in words. Here is one such attempt :)

This must be the busiest season of work I have experienced in my short career span. There is unbelievable pressure at work, with march year ending approaching fast. When you have run out of luck in the previous 2 months, this pressure can found in resonance!
Add to it, when Life decides to reveal itself in its complete 'Rudravatar' - you know, you have arrived in this world! :D

As I took a walk late this evening after work, I looked up at the clear sky - in despair and in anticipation of some miracle to happen. There was an instant connection with the infinite. With the one to whom I pray. What an expansion was experienced!

This post was triggered by a favourite song which I was listening to, during my walk..

 

The song epitomizes all that I was back in college - bohemian, rebellious, attitude problem, absolutely devoid of any responsibility & quite sheltered from hard realities of life (though I had seen a lot of difficult times at home since childhood, it hadn't really "hit" me).
I have been extremely fortunate to have led an easy student life - filled with masti + bhakti. Never faced the pressure of either "engineer or doctor". Nor the hard work of a CA. College was in the neighbourhood. Great friends. Loving teachers.... Everything was taken for granted!

The other day, I was at Anand Sweets, koramangala, with my colleagues. We had just finished a castigating review and were limping back to life. There was a group at the adjacent table. I couldn't help but smile : they were eating more than us, non-stop nonsense, casual banter, chic clothes & light headed - yeah they were a bunch of college kids! Like a flashback scene in a movie, I could visualize myself in their place not too long ago.

I miss college days. The care-free life. (Perhaps thats why teenagers find themselves in weird problems sometimes, which look quite stupid a few years later :)
Of course, life can't be like that always. There is so much learning as we take on responsibilities in life and move ahead (sometimes at the cost of losing our childlike innocense).

But at times, I look back at those days wistfully ... "Give me some sunshine... Give me some rain.... Give me another chance to grow up once again...." :)

Brings me to the precious words uttered by a learned saint: "Having a Guru doesn't mean sailing in a boat which will face no storm. It means, sailing in a boat which no storm can sink"...


To my Gurudev, who answered my prayers with: "I will give you the strength".